Feeling Emotions

Mike got a phone call from his friend Danny the other night.  He told Mike he better prepare himself for what's about to take place in our house.  I've been under the control of synthetic hormones for so long and my emotions have been somewhat under control because of that.  Since I'm no longer on birth control, my emotions can run free.

and boy have they!

I was visiting with my neurologist yesterday and he thinks my 18 days of headaches were caused by hormones.  I'm still going in for a brain scan at the end of the week though so we'll see.  The doctor asked me if I was actually ADHD or was I just taking adderral.  I told him I was ADHD and he asked if I was all over the place since being off the meds.  I feel like I have myself under control but then again, I was never as bad as some people.  It's hard to explain to an outsider that I have no reason to be medicated right now.  I'm not in school and my job is a breeze.  Granted I forget to pick up the newspaper from time to time and all hell breaks loose but that's the extent of my trouble on the job.  Sitting at work for 8 hours a day with NOTHING to do is my version of hell when I'm on medication.  I'm so focused.... ON THE CLOCK.  I had nothing else to focus on.  Time crawled by.  At least now my thoughts are so scattered that the simplest task can send me in 20 different directions and turns a 5 minute project in to a 55 minute project.  I'm not complaining... I love to stay busy.

I know I can overwhelm people sometimes because I have episodes where I'm all over the place and excited and going a million miles an hour (Mike deals with this mostly) but I'm not sorry.  I'm not sorry because that's ME.  That's MY emotion.  I feel it.  and then I start crying because I feel emotion.  * Cue Mike shaking his head and mumbling something about Danny being right*

My point is, it feels good to feel again.

AIDS Walk Los Angeles 2010

Who's doing it?!  ME!!!

I just have to start by saying that the past week was possibly one of the worst weeks for me health-wise in a very long time.  My migraine was awful and lasted over a week.  Today is the first day that I've felt mostly good in what seems like ages.  Every now and then I get sharp pains in the back of my head but I'll take that over constant sharp pain any day!!  Do you experience migraines?  If so, what's your remedy?

I ran a bunch of errands this morning and as I was leaving the tanning salon I noticed a AIDS Walk sign with registration information.  I am really excited about this and can't wait to raise money for it.  THEN, I noticed the Avon walk for breast cancer so I grabbed info on that too.  I hope to do both.

Speaking of breast cancer... check out this guy Monsterami PINK!!  25% of the purchase price will go to Susan G. Komen foundation.  They are so cute and you can get personal tags made for them.  Monsterami's make great gifts so be sure to check out the website.

The AIDS walk is October 17th and starts at 8:30 AM.  You can register online at aidswalk.net or by calling (213)201-9255.