Feeling down

Holy Crap, my calves are feeling yesterdays workout!  I love it.  I kind of wish I had forced myself to go at 11 this morning to another class.  


Today I set out to walk to Venice Beach.  It's absolutely gorgeous outside and the perfect day for a walk.  I loaded Zara up in her harness, grabbed my bottle of water and my ipod and off we went.  I actually wanted to run today and planned on starting my Couch to 5k training program but two problems came up.  I couldn't find the fanny pack (stylish, I know) and the first day of training is only 20 minutes.  I have small back pack I used to hold all my junk but it doesn't work so well for running.  I feel like if I had a iPhone and an arm strap, I could go without an ipod and my blackberry.  I want a running program on my phone and my music as well.  I don't want to have to run carrying a back pack or wearing a fanny pack.  What do you use to hold are your stuff while running?


A mile in to my very brisk walk, I was STARVING.  I had a major moment of weakness and I gave in.  I'm really bummed about this.  Usually, I have pretty good will power but not today.  I called and ordered a pizza.  I justified ordering this by doing my walk home extra fast.  I made it home in the half the time and just in time for the delivery to arrive.  and then I ate 4 small slices and had a glass of wine.


According to My Fitness Pal, I'm pretty ok on Calories considering it's 7:15 at night.


Breakfast:  High Fiber English Muffin, half tsp of butter, cinnamon & sugar with an espresso with sugar and coconut milk - 222 Calories
Lunch: Wheat Pita Bread (1/2 of one), 1tbs baba ganoush, tabouleh salad and tzasiki - 81 Calories (yes, I've been eating this a lot but it was leftovers and they are finally gone!)
Dinner - 4 slices of thin crust pizza with artichoke, garlic and spinach and a glass of wine - 841 Calories


Energy in: 1144
Energy Out: 213
I have 269 calories remaining... I think I'll have a protein shake later.


To wrap up... I'm really disappointed that I got so down on myself today for eating pizza.  When I had that last piece I got frantic trying to figure out what I could do at home in order to increase my activity level for the day.  I don't want to be obsessive about this but I almost feel like I have to be.  In an effort to not be so freaked out I've started using my Body Bugg again.  I have a love hate relationship with this thing.  I mainly hate it because my trainer likes to have a contest  and try to beat his last score (how many cals I burn) and I usually want to throw up afterwards.  Anyway, I just really want to not get so down about this sort of thing.  


In an effort to hold my self accountable, tomorrow I will start the couch to 5k training.  Run for 60 seconds, walk for 90.  I can do this.  and I will report back. 


My husband comes home tomorrow.  I can't wait to show him what I've been working on.

Let's Get Physical

I'm always up for trying new things and tonight I went and checked out Pop Physique on the West Side.  Months ago, I bought a one month pass but at the time they only had studios in Silverlake and Studio City.  Neither of which are close to me.  Mike and I were out running errands last week and I saw that a Pop Physique studio had opened near our house.  I think Mike almost ran off the road when I screamed and pointed it out.

It's super easy to book classes through their website... totally user friendly.  I was looking forward to this all day.  Until I got home.  I started having anxiety about going.  What if I suck?  What if it's more dancing hip hop than ballet and I look silly.  What if I can't do it?  Thoughts like this are what prevent me from doing a lot of things in life.  My social anxiety isn't as bad as it used to be but sometimes I do have freak outs.  I sucked it up and went.  It's within walking distance from my house.  How can I not go?!

I enjoyed myself.  My arms are killing me.  I had to make a phone call on the way home and I could barely hold the phone up to my ear.  AND I USED 2LB WEIGHTS!  haha.  My arms are so weak.   Scratch that... no self deprecating talk anymore.  I had a great arms workout yesterday so I was definitely feeling the burn.  I keep forgetting to do the Operation Beautiful thing at places though.  I need to be better about that.

Today's Food Choices:

I figure this is probably pretty boring for some readers but I want to explain WHY I'm doing it.  1200 Calories a day is pretty restrictive in my world.  It might be easier once I start working out more and I create larger deficits but until then, it's a struggle.  Often times I wonder what on earth do people eat on that sort of nutrition plan.  This is to help people who need food ideas.  Also I have a bad habit of gravitating towards what I know and what's easy so I eat the same things day in and day out and that's not good for a at least two reasons.  First, variety is the spice of life - eating the same foods all the time gets boring.  If we are bored with our food choices then we may gravitate towards exciting foods like Bacon Cheeseburgers.  Second, if we don't have enough variety in our diets, then we aren't getting the proper vitamins and nutrients.  I would love readers to share recipes with.

I always eat the same thing for breakfast, Monday - Friday.
Steel Cut Oats with Flax Oil and Maple Syrup (haven't had flax oil this week so the kcal count is sans oil), Coffee with Coconut Milk and Sugar - 391 Calories

Snack-
Fage 2% Greek Yogurt with Maple Syrup and  a cup of red grapes, Yakilt Probiotic drink, and a proteiin shake after my workout - 458 Calories

Dinner - Pita Bread with a tsp of baba ganoush, tabouleh salad, Tzasiki and some Hummus with a glass of wine - 330 Calories

Energy In = 1532
Energy out = 415

It's 9 on a Friday and I am so ready for bed.

Day 1 Summary

Picture Time!!!  

I'm really not THAT excited about pictures but in an effort to love myself and my body I am going to post them.  I also want to see my progress.  So, day 1 pictures.  Yay.  

Front Shot, excuse our room

Side View

Not the best back shot, but I'm alone so it's the best I could do.

Next!

Whew.  What a day.  I would like to wrap up each day by posting what I ate and drank for the day and the workout that followed.

Today was a bad day food wise.  It's like I set this goal in my head to do these great things and then immediately went and ate/drank crap.  

Breakfast: 1 cup of cooked steel cut oats w/ 1.5 tbl of 100% Pure Maple Syrup

Snack(?):  PB&J (two slices of whole grain toast, 1tbl of all natural PB and a 1tsp of natural preserves)

Lunch: About a cup of fettucini with truffle oil and butter sauce.  

Snack: Homemade Lily Bar

Post Work Out: Homemade strawberry smoothie with protein and l-glutamine and chocolate almond milk.  

oops, forgot I had a mexican coke today too.  Man, it was GOOD.  

Today isn't very accurate because I decided half way through the day to start this journey and I didn't want to put it off until tomorrow.  :)  I'm going to be tracking everything through My Fitness Pal.  I pretty much broke even but I'm over on carbs by 44 grams.  

GYM TIME!!  Met with my trainer tonight and was not excited to be there.  Mike is in Jordan and called distressed and it freaked me out.  I've also been suffering from slight vertigo lately so the two combined and I just felt blah.  I NEEDED to work out though.  I did 30 minutes of arms and then 20 minutes on the treadmill.  I did about 15 minutes of running at a pace of 4.5 and the rest was walking at about a 3.5.  

Last night,  as I laid in bed I thought about everything I'm thankful for.  I felt super at peace when I went to sleep.  Then I woke up a few hours later wide awake.  I want this to be a new tradition.  (the giving thanks... not the waking up a few hours later)

Goodnight.  

Goals

I have a million things I want to post about and I want to do it NOW!!!!!

I want to cover what I eat every day.  I want advice on how to make my diet better.  I want input from everyone.

I want to talk about working out, running, yoga... any kind of exercise.  I want to know about the latest and greatest but most importantly, the most fun!

I want to post photos of myself and Mike at the beginning of our journey and constantly keep this updated.  I want everyone to be a part of our transformation. 

Right now my goals are as follows:

1.  Get off hormonal birth control.  I've been on birth control for many, many years and after reading Caitlin's story, I was inspired.  I just need to buy the book.
 2.  I want to learn how to love my body.  Not to judge myself and most importantly not worry if others are judging me.  Operation Beautiful is helping me with that.
3a.  Mike is hands down the best Chef I know, but I want to be a great chef too.  Any time he travels for work, my healthy food choices go out the door with him.
3b.  Work with Mike to "let go" in the kitchen.  He doesn't always have to be in charge.  :) 
4.  Start the Couch to 5k training program.  Running a marathon is a big goal... must start small.
5.  No more missing training sessions with Jeff because I want to be lazy. 
6.  If I want my body to change, I have to start monitoring my caloric intake again.  *sigh*

I will touch on each of these goals in future posts.  For now, I'm off to read Janet Evanovich's  Sizzling Sixteen!  What are you reading?